Things I fell in love with this summer

1)Bomber jackets

Even though they are more fall season, I love bomber jackets. I didn’t get any until the end of last month (they were vintage). They make any outfit seem more laid back or edgy.  They’re really comfy to wear with just a simple dress, or the classic jeans and tshirt. I know they will really come in handy when winter rolls around because of the thick material.

2)Early mornings

This has been due to both early morning classes and lack of sleep some mornings causing me to stay up till the sunrise. But no all seriously, I think its cool being up before anyone else and having time to yourself. I usually make a cup of tea, do a face mask, pick out my outfit if didn’t the night before, then do my hair. If I don’t have anything going on that day I like to plan an activity to do that day whether it’s going out for lunch or checking out a new boutique downtown.

3)Face masks

As I mentioned above I like to them in the at least twice a day. I use the sand and sky clay mask once a month(or when my skin is really bad like now). I also use some products from lush but if I just want to sit in absolute silence and think about something then I’ll do sheets masks.

As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

New York(1)

Okay so I know I don’t tell you guys all about my life but by the title, yes I went to New York. If you follow me on instagram you should know this already, so here’s what happened.

I was staying with a family in Union City. The room was very beautiful, like something out of a vintage movie. (The house was pretty old) Anyways the house was amazing, but in my true fashion, I had something to work on. Yup I had to finish an essay for the first summer term english class I had. I didnt really have that good of time management skill(working on that, I promise)

Carrying on with our tale trip, my one pet peeve I didnt enjoy was going back and forth from Union City to NYC simply becuase it was money. And actually one of the days I forgot my wallet back at the airbnb SO I had to get a lyft back. Other than those problems the trip was a success. I didn’t vlog it but most of it did go on my instastory(@alonna_lucille)[you’re welcome]. I went to multiple art museums, went to a lot of cool bookstores, and ate an drank some pretty tasty things. The most memorable trip by far becuase I did a very big personal thing that helped me strengthen my relationship with my parents before I left. So needless to say that trip will always be in my mind whenever I make it back to New York City.

As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

Realtionships

This past week or so has reminded me of the relationships (either friends, family or other) I have or had in my life. This year I’ll be living with two people which is a huge step for me in life right now. It’s getting me out of my comfort zone, but I also want to pull back. I enjoyed living by myself and last year made me realize that. I know going forward it’s going to be tough for me to get used to this.

But back to the point, relationships. I don’t know this whole time I’ve been here (literally only a few days) I still can’t believe I did this. As you all know I’m not that social of a person except on here or with people I’m really close to. This whole time I’m just thinking about whether or not I want to actually be friends with these people. I don’t know, what if being friends and roommates ruins this? I talked about it with my therapist on many occasions and they reminded me that sometimes I’ll have people in my life for certain things and that’s okay.

I think now that’s the only keeping me at peace with all of this, that and working out.  I wasn’t working out for a while because of classes but now I’m back into it. Overall the message I wanted to say was, people will come in and out of our lives, like my therapist said we have certain people for certain things and that’s alright. As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

 

(Sidenote I’m slowly getting back into youtube again, let me know in the comments what you would like to see from me)

Spending time offline

This week I’ve been spending more time offline, I’ve realized few things but here’s just one or two that stood out to me.

  1. It’s nice to not have a distraction
  2. I have a lot more time on my hands.

So with the first one it’s pretty self explanatory. I can get my tasks done and not worry about anything else because my phone is a dry desert. I’m not complaining, it’s actually a very good thing.

The second one is a follow up on the first one really. I got my homework done faster than I would have if I did have my phone. I had more time to work on my story or artistic side which was fantastic.

Overall this has just made me realize that what I did at home, I should go back to that. Let me explain, when I got home from school I used to put my phone in this spot where I could charge it then I went to the computer room to work on my homework. Not only did this help me mentally to not overthink and focus on the task at hand, my phone was also charging. This made me realize how much I really have my phone glued to me, a part of me knows I always will have to but for those moments when I don’t I have plan. As always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

Hawaii(1)

Okay not going to lie this trip was inspired by my favorite Youtuber, model, and woman Eva Gutowski. If you don’t know who she is…link is down below.

So I keep watching this vlog of hers where she goes to Hawaii. The vlog on her collaboration with ColourPop. And I went on this not journey but spontaneous trip with that in the back of my mind. I got an Airbnb near the capital and called it a day. The one thing I was freaking out about this was, one, do they have Lyft there? (yes). Two, do I have the address right on this airbnb?(yes I did). Keep in mind I had no clue what I was going to do or where I was going to go, I’ve only been to Hawaii once before when I was about 7 or something.

So jump to where I was actually staying, the place I stayed at was super nice. I got the whole complex to myself, the people who were watching over the places were nice as well. And while I was there I just felt at home. The weather was phenomenal the entire trip. A lot of people thought I was local, which personally made me feel at home. So when I told people I was from the mainland, they were a little shocked. Everyone kept saying that I had that Aloha spirit which I can understand. Taking in what Hawaii’s indigenous people went through it was the same from a lot of other peoples on the mainland during and still today while colonization was happening.

So taking that into account I felt more at peace there. I walked around a lot my first actual day there. And one thing I like to do when I travel is not act like a tourist. I like to live like a local so to speak, I realized that a lot less people talk to you unless you want to talk to people, which is something I enjoy. As I mentioned earlier I took Lyfts everywhere around the island. It was cheaper than back home so I was living. I had conversations with most of them about what it’s like living here on this island. One person who I remember asking what it’s like replied with,”it nice and all, you can’t beat the weather. But the one thing is after a while you have no sense of time anymore…”

He then went on to explain how since the weather is so nice all the time you can’t really tell. Where on the mainland seasons change so you have a warning or literal sign of what month and day it is, you don’t get that there.

That was just one out of three conversations but I think I will save those for another time when I think they’re relevant. As for now I would love to hear where you guys have and where you want to go. Like always I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next time!

Keeping Busy

So recently I’ve been doing this but not in the right way. I feel like you guys can relate because we all do this, so thankfully I’m not alone.

Story time(v)

I was in my old room, my bed was on my floor I had my music blasting. I wasn’t talking to anyone and I was in my own head twenty four seven. I barely got out of my room besides going to class or doing my laundry. It wasn’t until later as I type this that I realized I was busy…. Just not in the right thing.

See I feel like we all get like this to some degree, like if we watch too much Netflix besides working out or studying. Whatever the case may be I’m glad I noticed this when I did. To be honest I wasn’t going to post something today since I was going back to my own head.  It took me a minute to realize why I was acting the way I did before I started to type out this post. I mean this isn’t me saying I’m always like this but yes there was a period in my life when I was just in my own head twenty four seven.

So I went off on a little tangent but I will end with this and what helps me. Ask yourself how you are doing in any current situation. This has helped me ground myself and actually think about what I have to do versus what I did do. Then I clean for like ten minutes on a space where I work or a spot in my room I’ve been delaying for a while. Lastly, I make some tea, put on some tunes(usually indie or something from the girlboss playlist) and I get to work on something. I hope this helped you guys in anyway. Like always I hope the rest of your week is great and I will see you guys next time!

 

Travel

Recently I’ve been wanting to leave the state I’m in and I don’t really know why. With summer classes I don’t really have to be on campus but I am. I guess it’s just because I want to be anonymous again. That feeling of no one knows me is just so satisfying to me. It gives me more inspiration to be who I want to become. A friend and I are trying to plan a trip to Brooklyn, New York later on this summer. I just don’t know what I’m going to do with another person. I’m so used to traveling apart of me is just wanting to say no. I don’t know what to do, I just know that I want to feel anonymous again without the pressure of others around me. Thank you so much for sticking with me, I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next week!

Summer kinda

Over here the weather’s a mess I’ll just put it at that. One minute its warm and sunny, I can wear a tank top. The next its storming like its gonna snow. So right now I’m seeming this weather summer. I feel like I look cool but really I look pastel goth. I dont mind this look I actually am digging it so much. It’s just I feel like I always have to dress for anything. Its annoying honestly. Anyways I know this wasn’t the normal thing but that’s all I had on my mind to share with you guys! I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you next sunday!

Working out

I don’t think I mentioned this before but I work out pretty regularly about 4-5 times a week. Over time I’ve seen this benefit me and my overall health but at times I was still a mess. Now I’m at this routine where i workout so far every morning this week. I don’t know I guess sometimes working out does make a difference and other times not so much. I know this was short but my mind is somewhere else working on other poems. I hope the rest of your day is great and I will see you guys next week!

Going back to writing short stories.

So as you all now I have been writing spoken word since late last year but it hasn’t been the same.  Recently I’ve been back at it writing short stories about characters based off of who I am or was. I am going to make an effort to write not about me this summer seeing as that usually helped dealing with shit. By shit I mean terrible thoughts of the past and present.  I will be posting them to my old Wattpad account when they are done and decently edited by people. I will update it in each blog whenever there is one.

Also I got a ukulele so I will be trying new things with that on my YouTube channel. Like usual keep an eye out and I hope the rest of your day is great.